I'll Live By Faith For You

My Infection? All Clear =]

2010-12-08T00:56:00.002+08:00

I went to CGH yesterday after around 3.30pm. The doctor checked my infection and said that he could no longer detect the abscess. PRAISE GOD!!! =] So i'm cleared and hopefully the infection will not come back ever again, we claim this is Jesus' Almighty Name, Amen! =]

My Infection

2010-11-09T21:54:00.005+08:00

It was last week when I realised that what I thought was a pimple was actually an infection(something abscess). It hurt whenever I sat down. Basically whenever pressure was applied to the infection, it would hurt. I think you would know where the infection was at...

Anyway, last Thursday my Mum and I went to a GP and he told us that I would have to go to A&E to get the infection removed that night and that taking medication would not work as eventually I would still have to get it removed through surgery. What a news to receive on my birthday... So the next day, we went to A&E at CGH and after a check-up, the doctor called her senior doctor and he too said that I should get it removed that day if not it could get worse. Although antibiotics could help remedy the infection, it had a very low chance of doing so. So my parents and I decided that I went for the surgery that day.

We got the ward, I went in and got myself comfortable on the comfy bed. Some doctors came in to further check my infection. So everything was set, I was going to get the surgery done and all that day. We considered the consequences of doing the surgery- it would be uncomfortable for me to sit and do the ss paper on Monday and it would be hard to even study for it. Moreover, it would take about one month for the wound to completely recover after the surgery. But we decided that we might as well get it done once and for all. "how bad can it be?" I though to myself.

Not long later, the doctor came in and told me that the operating theatre they needed to use was unavailable as they had two life-threatening cases lined up. Thus, I would only be able to get the surgery done either late that afternoon, night, or maybe even the next day although it was just a short few minutes surgery. So we discussed again and decided to wait till next Monday as it would take a long time for the pain wound after the surgery to subside, not in time for my paper on Monday at least. The doctor gave me an appointment on the following Tuesday(today) to see him. However, he said that if the infection did not get better or became worse, I should go on Monday. In the meantime, he gave me some antibiotics, swelling and other pills to try and remedy the infection. So I was checked out of the hospital that day. I felt God remind me of a verse in Exodus where he said "I am the God that heals you". I also felt that this whole course of my infection getting cured is a purification process which I asked Him to take me on the previous Saturday during service and cell.

On Saturday, I got my awesome cell to pray for me :D I also prayed everyday of course. After praying for healing I felt that it was important to not just pray for healing, but complete healing. Being specific counts? I dunno but I just did what I felt I should have done.

So the progress of the medication was:

Friday- NIL

Saturday- NIL

Sunday- reduced in size

Monday- reduced in size

So today, my parents and I went to CGH for the appointment with that same doctor. Mingled feelings I felt... He checked the infection and said "looks like the gamble(of taking the medication at the risk of it failing and the infection worsening) paid off!" He gave me a few more antibiotics to take till Friday and said that I shouldn't need to go for the surgery. So now I'm just praying that by Friday everything settles. =]

Through this whole course, I felt God's peace. I really thank Him that I don't have to go for the surgery. Because if I did, my holidays, my post-O level holiday to be precise, I would not be able to enjoy O: But at least now I can, knowing that the medication worked. It was a struggle preparing for the SS paper on Monday because of the difficulties sitting down I had, but I thank God for bringing me through it. The infection is small now and it no longer hurts. Another verse I held close to me through this whole course and through the O levels is Joshua 1:8-9 "8.Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. 9.Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

God is truly a God who heals =] What we see and what we hear? Cannot determine what God is doing in our lives=]

Take One Step Towards God and He Will A Thousand Steps Towards You

2010-11-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

'Take One Step Towards God and He Will A Thousand Steps Towards You'

As cliche as it may sound, there's so much truth in this statement. I was just thinking about this statement just now and I came to realise that taking one step towards God? Isn't just any simple step we take because is costs us nothing. From my perspective, it's a step of sacrifice. For example, reading one chapter of the Bible is so simple for some. And if he reads one chapter everyday that's still fine. But if it comes to a point whereby reading one chapter a day is just a "do for the sake of quiet time", there's a problem there. So the step of sacrifice is going beyond the norm, for example, challenging one's self to read two or maybe even three chapters of the Bible everyday. Something worth sacrificing.

I think that's what the statement 'Take One Step Towards God and He Will A Thousand Steps Towards You' means. Just that little extra effort we put in into getting to know God better, it's a sacrifice.

I think realising the essence of God in everyday life is an awesome way to draw close to God =] So many things, our circumstances, nature and all, God's in it =] He's the creator of school, history and everything we can ever imagine. God is beyond the limits of this universe, how can He not be in the things we see and encounter everyday? God, You're awesome =]

Back to the essentials

2010-09-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

I have to confess that I am not always in love with God 24/7 and I am not longing for God 24/7. In fact I think almost everyone encounters this. This is reality. But we can do something about this by making it a point to constantly think about go through out the day. Yes, this is definitely tough but this is definitely why it requires SACRIFICE. To have to seek God for ways to have meaningful conversations when you're having a meal with friends, to thank God for the water while bathing, and the list goes on... So it requires SACRIFICE to constantly make it a point to re-direct our attention to God. (I still struggle with this!)

Speaking about not being passionate for God, it's been quite some time that I've been wondering why I ain't passionate for God as I used to be in my lower secondary years. People always say that we should be forward looking and not try to find that same passion I used to have for God again but instead I should long for a greater passion like never before! BUT the problem is, my passion for Him is not even close to how it used to be years ago! In fact it's deteriorating! BUT, I've got good news! I realised last week why I wasn't as passionate for God as I used to be. It was precisely because I began to forsake the two most essential things in Christian Living: Prayer and reading of God's word! When I was in my lower secondary years, I read the Bible often and even memorised Scripture Verses. BUT i've neglected these essentials for so long and this explains my lost passion for God.

This week I tried memorizing two Verses: 2Timothy 1:7 and Ephesians 4:29. These verses help me think about God through the day because it's His words! One more thing, God's word is Rhema. Meaning that we need to speak it out rather than just knowing them. BUT before we can do that, we need to first memorise Verses.

I've also tried praying more. Ephesians 6:18 says that we should pray on all occasions with all kinda of requests! Therefore, we should come to God with all types of prayers! This explains why we should place a strong emphasis on prayer! For reading the Bible, the supporting verse would be Matthew 4:4- Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God- Which is the Bible!

Ever since I started practising these two essential practices in Christian living, I discover a passion that burns deeper and more genuine longing for God. So I encourage everyone of you reading this, don't forsake Prayer and reading of The Word. These two must always be included in whatever pathway you take to God.

God bless =]

Expressing hope through my actions

2010-08-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

I was feeling kinda low today. I guess it's got to do with God and I. Some stuff in my life that isn't right.

I didn't do anything about the gap between God and myself which I had created until awhile ago. I decided to go for a jog and kinda spend time with God as I did so. I was listening to my ipod and when it came to a point where it felt like I was the prodigal son that saw hope when he saw his father and gave a run towards his father, I started running to express the hope I found and man, I sure feel back home to daddy God now =]

2010-05-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

I never thought about how I write on my blog. But today I've decided that I want this blog to be an authentic blog, where I just write with transparency =]

Road

2010-05-28T00:01:00.003+08:00

Imagine this, you're on the road that you see in the picture. You are walking on the road, on your way to reach a certain destination. Everything seems so fine, the wind is cool, the grass is healthy, animals running in the grass patch.

Then all of a sudden. everything starts going all wrong. Animals run into hiding, the wind gets stronger. Then, the clouds seem to cover up what used to be the clear blue sky. You see lightning, you hear the sound of thunders roar. It starts raining heavily. The sky only keeps getting darker. And about an hour later, it is night and the rain has stopped... You're lost and alone... Tears roll down your cheek, you make a sound to express your sorrow, but you know no one hears you. Another hour has gone. Everything is dark and still, the lively animals you saw earlier in the day are gone, You start to wonder when it'll be day again.

Then you pause and fall to your knees and start praying.

"Are you alright my child?...... Come, follow me and I will take you to where the light it is."

You open your eyes and lift up your head. You see a man in front of you holding a lamp. He places the lamp on the ground and put his arms around you, giving you a hug. You start crying, not tears of sorrow but tears of hope.

"Don't cry, Everything will be alright." The man says in a reassuring voice.

People

2010-03-26T18:54:00.003+08:00

Today was different from other days.. I feel a cozy and the warm love of family and friends, i don't really know how to describe how I feel right now, but this dream I had last night kinda expresses how I feel now. =]

The dream had a few random parts that seem senseless to me, like having only 4 periods in school on Friday then go home! Haha! But there is this one part in particular that I remember. Not sure if it's from God, but it has value, so I guess it could be from God, haha, here it goes! :

I saw my self walking down a tunnel-like walkway, ok maybe it is a tunnel. Anyway, as I was walking I saw a few people that never really had any significant impact on my life. People that I don't think about so much. When I saw them I started thanking them for being in my life. As I was walking I said to myself, if not for the people around me, I would want to kneel down here and cry. It was that intense feeling of love I cannot describe.

Well, No One, No One, Is Insignificant, even if they don't seem to have any significant impact on my life. Now when I look at it, the greatest impact anyone can have on our lives is being in our lives. I also come to realise recently that if I want to learn to love people, I first have to love God. It's like, a domino, you love God, you naturally will learn to love people. Then God would teach us more about love when we meet our life partners.

(I did not intend to write what i'm gonna write but it links with what I just wrote so i'll just write what i'm gonna write HAHA! write right? right!)

I recently read this article of this man who went to Cambodia and to make a long story short, he quitted his job as a Hollywood star to commit his life to helping kids living in the dumps. Such profound love for the people. What if one day God calls me to travel the world or maybe even to stay in a less fortunate country to be a blessing? When I read that article I felt a calling to go on mission trip again this year. People reading this, please keep me in prayer about this! Praying for a confirmation on whether God really wants me to go on mission trip or not.

Ok this is something else I didn't intend to write:

I haven't been hanging out with my old friends I used to spend time with last time. And I recently come to realise that I really miss these people, so i'm gonna hang out with them soon! =]

I really miss the going out, doing random stuff together, going to random places like outside SMU to jam, Haha! Don't get the wrong idea, I enjoy the people I hang out with today too! Argh, to sum it all, Everyone Out There I Enjoy The Good And Bad Times With You All And You Are Already Significant To Me Cos You Are A Part Of My Life! (hey this links with my first point in this post! Haha!)

"God I pray that You'd teach me to be disciplined in studying and also spend time with both church and school friends. Teach me to love everyone the same. To affirm and show love to the people around me. And also to love You more. Hey God, this kinda links with Your greatest commandment, Love You and people! Thank You for the people in my life and for helping me write this post with authenticity I never felt before. I also want to love my family more. Be a greater part of my life, God. In Jesus name, Amen. =]"

9 March 10'

2010-03-11T12:07:00.002+08:00

A beautiful evening at the beach.

Walking up the to shore,

The waves right in front of me

Gently climbs onto shore.

I feel You calling

One step further

Into the waters

So delirious it may seem

But I dedicate to You.

A step of Faith

A step of Surrender.

The things in my heart washed away

But the only thing that will be left shining

is Your Name.

Dad, Are You Free Now?

2010-03-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

It was late in the night, a dad was at his working desk working on something on his laptop, while his eight year old son was at a table in front of him attempting some math questions. The little boy stumbled upon a math question he could not solve. He wanted to consult his father but he saw how busy his father was. Not wanting to distract his dad from his work, the little boy hid his face behind his math book, taking a peak at his father every minute, hoping his father would be done with his work on the laptop. It was pass 11pm and the dad was still working on his laptop.

"Son, is there something wrong?" The dad asked as he noticed his son constantly peaking at him.

In an innocent and curious voice, the little boy asked, "Will I be disturbing you if I ask you to help me with a math question?"

"Well, I certainly can make time for that! What's the question?" The dad answered as he shook his head twice to keep himself awake before he gave his son the "yes My Son?" face.

This was a scenario that came to my mind two days ago during a free period in class.

Similar to the father in this story, despite the many prayer phone calls God receives from all over the world 24/7, if we were to also come to him in prayer, he would turn his attention towards us and say, "yes My Son?"

Like a roaring lion that has come to kill, steal and destroy.

2010-02-21T18:30:00.004+08:00

On Friday morning, I woke up at 6am to get ready for school, however, I fell back to sleep. I had a dream when I fell back to sleep:

I was in my Grandparent's house. I found myself looking into the fridge and there was one packet left of some green drink(i think it was some cucumber like drink). That one last packet still had the plastic covering all the 6 in 1 packet drinks always come in on it. It was strange as my Grandmother normally removes that plastic covering. Anyway, my Grandparents went out together for awhile, they told me to take care of the house. Not long after that, I somehow was expecting my mentor, Kenneth to come. But instead, some random dude came. I said hi to him as I initially thought he was my mentor. The random well built and stern looking dude has a circle ear ring on his ear that some how caught my eye. I don't know why. He asked me if I had a drink. I immediately without second thoughts ran to the fridge, took the last packet of drink and gave it to him. After drinking it, he sounded really thirsty and with a hoarse voice, pleaded me to let him into the house as he needed something to quench his thirst. I somehow knew that letting him in would jeopardise the safety of my Grandparents house. He started to get frustrated and angry. In my mind I thought, "I already gave you something to drink, shouldn't you be grateful and not react this way?!"

My Grandmother's house has a gate and a door. In the dream, the gate was special, it required a chopstick to be placed into some part of the gate in order to lock the gate. He threatened to force his way into the house but somehow he knew he couldn't. I took a chopstick and locked the gate with it. He started screaming like as though all hope is lost. I knew it was al for the better, so I closed the door after that. His screamed seemed to grow softer second by second. The dream ended like that. I felt weird when I woke up, the dream felt so real and scary. I thought the dream could have a meaning. I remembered the whole dream somehow.

During the Prayer Meeting in church yesterday, I suddenly remembered the dream and felt God reminding me of the bible verse which goes something like, "the devil has come like a thief to kill, steal and destroy..."(searched it up, it's john 10:10) My understanding of the dream was still obscure.. I shared the dream and the verse I felt God gave my for the dream to my mother, not expecting her to give me an interpretation of the dream. She said something like "normally, all these wooden stuff(chopstick in this case) represents the cross." She reminded me of the devil being a roaring lion that cannot harm us. It all made sense then.

To sum it all up,the possible interpretation of the dream is, the wooden chopstick represented the Cross, I guess that's why the random dude/thief/ devil started screaming as if all hope was lost when I placed the chopstick into the gate. Although the dude seemed fierce, violent and all, he couldn't break into the house, just like the devil similar to a roaring lion that can only roar but is unable to attack me.

Cool dream huh? I wonder if the packet drink, my grandparents going out and me expecting my mentor to come has a meaning behind it...

Maybe the part about my grandparents going out, leaving me the only person in the house to face the random dude meant that, though i'm young and am one person only, with God's strength, the enemy cannot enter and attack?

Feel free to share if you have an idea of what the dream or some parts of the dream could mean. =]

John 10:10

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

A week of showing love to the people around me and a week of refreshment

2010-02-21T18:13:00.003+08:00

Nothing much significant happened this week relating to this theme haha, but it sure was a week of refreshment.

Firstly, I had a mini retreat with Ben Lee, Benedict and Gabriel, where I was reminded of God's love for me! And then prayer meeting on friday helped to sort out all that.

I felt like my passion and focus on God was refreshed at service yesterday. I felt assured that my life is going in the right direction God wants me to go. Well, He's in control so I guess there isn't really a out of his will kinda thing haha.

This morning, completing a song Huiting and I tried to write a few weeks ago was fun and again refreshing. For quite awhile my interest in music have died down tremendously. My music life started to seem kinda obscure.. But TODAY, completing the song with Huiting, Dominick and Gabiel, was not only fun and exciting, I felt inspired by them and that drive for music is moving again! =]

I really thank God for all these awesome people in my life! :D

Guest speaker David Davis who spoke at Megalife service yesterday said this coming week, our faith will be tested. Maybe that's why i'm getting refreshed in so many areas this week, hmm, we'll see =]

2010-02-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

"Everyone needs compassion"

-So many times we fail, we fall, we sin, how can we say we don't need compassion?

"A Love that's never failing"

-We so often fall into sin, how can we not say we need a love that lasts forever, that never fails of forsake us?

Emotions In Words

2010-02-15T01:54:00.008+08:00

Somewhere far away
No worries
No pain
No struggles
Ni sickness
Just take me there with You LORD

Being human, often I
Fall away from You
Fail You
Give up searching
Live like You don't exist in my life
Put You aside as if you don't matter

You say that I am Your masterpiece
You say nothing You've made is junk

All this I know

But somethings missing
Something isn't right.

Somewhere far away
Where Your beautiful creation surrounding me
Where The cool wind blows
Where The animals run around
Where a cottage stands

Where The fire that keeps me warm burns

Your gentle whisper
Your warm love

After writing all this, I'm reminded of Psalms 23,

The LORD Is My Shepherd

I shall not be in want

He makes Me lie down in green pastures

He leads Me beside still waters

He restores My soul

He guides Me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

I will fear no evil

For You are with Me

Your rod and Your staff they comfort Me

You prepare a table before Me

In the presence of My enemies

You anoint my head with oil

My cup overflows

Surely goodness and mercy will follow Me

All the days of My Life

And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever

A Week Of Praying Before Making A Decision

2010-02-15T01:52:00.001+08:00

This week was more of praying before I make a decision. It's hard but it I did pray alot more this week then I usually do. Also thanking God for the things around me, it felt great coming to God for something else rather than always coming to Him on bended knees with a request..

A Week Of Treasuring People

2010-02-07T21:33:00.002+08:00

This week I felt like I could have put in more effort into treasuring people...

Well, I did thank the uncle that locks up the school everyday. Sms an appreciation sms to a few people but I feel that I could have done more... I could have go beyond what I would normally do...

BUT! This theme of Treasuring People will not end here! I will want to carry this value with me, I just hope I don't keep forgetting about it..

30th Jan Worship

2010-01-31T16:43:00.003+08:00

Worshipping in the dark I guess helped me to lead without having to worry about what people thought. But more than that, I could not have lead without God's strength.

God is a really merciful and faithful God that keeps His promises. Spending more time to pray for cell worship rather than preparing the technical side of things did pay off. And though I wasn't right with God the past days, God still stood there to be my strength...

A Week Of Important People

2010-01-31T16:36:00.002+08:00

So often we as humans have people we consider as "more important than others". And we tend to treat these people better than others. We are show more love to these people, we go the extra mile to help them and all. We sort of rate our friends, _/10 how important they are. But that shouldn't be the way we live. Jesus saw everyone as a 10/10. He showed the same love to everyone, even to people He didn't know and people who hated Him.

This week I tried to see everyone as a 10/10. Though I did fail at times but it sure felt better. =]

A Week Of Being Happy And Making Others Happy

2010-01-24T22:13:00.002+08:00

It's impossible to always be happy but the aim of this past week was to be optimistic?

So how was this week for me? hmm, it's been kinda cool =] We can really make someone's day by appreciating that person. Even a simple 'hello' would do! For me, there's this uncle in school that waits for everyone to leave the school, make sure every room is locked before he locks up the whole school and be the last person to leave the school. I feel sorry for him having to have to tell us students a million times to clear the school when it's late before we actually do so. And he seems to hold alot of negative memories with him, causing him to always look so grouchy..

When I saw him this week I said 'hello uncle' to him and he looked so happy! He smiled back(seldom see him smile) and replied me with a 'hello' in a cheerful tone! It sure felt good =]

Come to think of it, how many people in the school actually bother to say hi to these people that are doing service unto the school? Let's learn to appreciate the people around us! =] I'm sure it'll also inspire the people around us =]

Also, when buying drinks and all, rather than just getting our soon to be digested items and then walk away, lets learn to thank the person who serves us the food! And also when they ask us a question, let's reply them verbally rather then just nodding our heads, it's just different! HAHA!

If You're reading this, I wana challenge you to interact with the aunty and uncles in your school. Be it the canteen uncle, the cleaner, etc... And also, write them a thank you card, they'll feel touched =] Let's be a light unto the world! =]

A Week Of Affirmation

2010-01-17T00:29:00.002+08:00

It all started on Monday night when I felt I was not living a Christ-like life. So, I decided to do this, every week, identify a certain characteristic Jesus had, and carry it with me for the entire week. And each week, the list just gets longer =]

So, this week was 'affirmation'

It sure felt good, being affirming, although many a time I say stuff that I don't mean, I feel kinda bad after awhile cos I know it's not what Jesus would have said. I did spoke un-affirming words this week but at least there's a control now of what I say =]

It feels good when you're in a community where people are affirming! Words are very powerful, God created the world with words, "let there be light" and there was light. So let's use words to affirm one another instead of putting people down! =]

2009

2010-01-06T21:26:00.002+08:00

So fast and it's over! I guess 2009 was an interesting year for me, going through different obstacles in life..

I really have to thank God for the strength to overcome my view of school that i carried with my throughout my sec 1 and 2 years. I used to dread going to school, I was always longing for another Christian that really cared about God to show up in the class but there never was. There never was even in Sec 3 until I brought a friend to Church. He re-dedicated his life to Christ and now, it's not so tiring being the only one in class that really cares about God and wanting to show His love to my friends. Many a time we only complain and dread over things but it's when we take the first step that things start to change =]

To me, 2009 was a year of rising up for me. Rising up in leadership and in speaking up. I never could lead a group well, I always felt that I screwed up and all. Honestly I didn't really learn much from my failures, but rather it was a suddenly can do kinda thing. And when I look back, with my own strength I wouldn't be able to lead like how I lead now. The part about leading worship, well, still learning =] Speaking up, I never really dared to speak up in terms of taking initiative to lead a group when no one is. I also learn to really just tell people what needs to be heard rather than always telling people what they wana hear. When I look back at the start of 2009, it all started as being appointed the class chairman. I didn't ever thought whether God had a plan for that or not. It just seemed like a sabotage by friends to get that role kinda thing. But God really used all these things though it's not a position in Church, to teach me alot. I felt that I could have done more as the class chairman though, but that's a lesson I have to learn and apply to my life this year whether i'm the chairman again or not! You don't have to have a chairman position to lead, it's all about initiative, i think? =] Then There was Superlife Ministry, band leader. I never thought spending more time worshipping in a band practice would change things to how it is today. Though I honestly many times did not put in my heart and soul to plan and pray over things =( And last but not least, cell ministry! God used 'Elevate camp' as a platform for me to rise up. Now as i look at it, it actually all links up! During camp, stepping up to pray for my cell mates and leaders. I always worried what if I prayed the wrong things and all, but we just need to forget everything we know about the person and hear what God has to say =]

I thank God for all the times I could rise up in the elevate camp! Will have a seperate blog post on my experience in 'elevate camp' !

Yep, actually 2009 has been quite a year of spiritual Elevation! =] Not sure what to expect of 2010 but anyway, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! =]

Haven't Caught Up With You Yet

2009-12-16T11:27:00.002+08:00

"God, while I've been continuously catching up with people, spending time with them, You were always there, wanting to spend time with me but I didn't give time to You... sorry God..."

Meteor Shower

2009-11-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

I went to Japanese gardens last night with Abby, Pi Ying and Cavell. Spent the night there to catch the meteor shower but ended up only got to see four shooting starts cos it was cloudy but that's good enough! Had lots of fun and I guess it was a really refreshing experience for me =]

4th Nov

2009-11-04T22:49:00.002+08:00

I was on the train to school this morning, more than just looking at the fact that God put me on Earth 15 years ago, I looked outside and somehow, the things around me really caught my attention. People always say, God created the whole Earth, trees and all that stuff but I never really appreciated all this things around me. When I saw the trees, waters, the sunlight and the people around me, I felt amazed at how wonderful God is! I mean it's like, how do you create water and all these other stuff out of nothing?! And all of these things are made for a reason!

When I looked at the people around me, their purpose in life is 'Worship'. Which is our response to what we value most. We, human beings are made to worship, realize we're always longing for something or someone to worship? Look at the people in the train station, the man who constantly curse and swear, the people with tattooed body parts and the many earrings, the man that talks on the voice and makes sure everyone hears every word that he says, each and every person is made to worship!

Everything God makes is good and has a reason for it's existence, nothing God has made is junk! God did not make a mistake when he made you! =]

Quiet Time

2009-10-29T21:45:00.003+08:00

I've been doing my quiet time but I felt spiritually stagnant and dry. After going out with Darren on tuesday, I realized that there was something really wrong in how I had been doing my quiet time...

I used to just read a bible verse and a small part of a Christian book sometimes but most of the times my quiet time would only be maybe about 5-10 minutes? Just doing it for the sake of doing it before I sleep. Until one night I felt God say, "is this how much I mean to you after all I've done for you?". I knew I wasn't honoring God in how I did my quiet time.

So, I decided to change the way I do quiet time! I don't wanna offer God a cheap offering. I wanna give Him more of my time!
Instead of doing quiet time at night, ad far as possible, I do it in the day. And instead of just a short prayer and then read the word, pray and get my heart right with God. Speaking in tongues really helps me focus on God whenever I can't focus on Him... though reading Christian books helps build up our spiritual life, reading the Bible is very very important. So i'm now reading at least one chapter a day =]

Really good stuff! I feel so different after giving God something that costs me something! =]

Complaining

2009-10-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

What is one that you always complain to God about?

For me it's really the whole thing about whose better... Sometimes I complain to God about why I can't play the guitar as well as other, why can't I be as good as others.

But rather than always complaining to God, why not we thank Him instead? =]

We really shouldn't take what God has given to us for granted.

Complaining to God is like saying that God had made a mistake. Just like a child complaining to his dad why all his friends at school has a toy when he doesn't. It's like saying his dad made a mistake! How would the dad feel? He love his son so much, care so much for him and the son says that the dad had made a mistake? How would God feel when we complain?

There's some book that writes, "complaining to God is like giving God a slap in the face".

When I heard this from Darren, it made me realize how ungrateful we can be!

So, before complaining to God in future, let's give it a second thought =]

God Bless

Capture me again

2009-09-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

Staring in silence I see the page,
But my heart is in another place.
The music plays, the voices sing.
Oh, but what does a song really mean?

It's so sad but so true,
It's just another moment missed with you.

Oh,capture me again,
Revive what seems so dim.
Restore whole first love's fire,
My heart's desire.

So inequipped, the words of a prayer,
But they dissolve into the thin air.
I see the pain within her eyes,
I give a smile as I quickly pass by.

It's so sad but so true,
It's just another moment missed with you.

Oh,capture me again,
Revive what seems so dim.
Restore whole first love's fire,
My heart's desire.

I see the beauty of your goodness,
but I settle for something much less.
Your gentle whisper, your presence so sweet.
Will I walk away or set at your feet?
Oh, Jesus please break through.
I don't want to miss this moment with you.

Oh,capture me again,
Revive what seems so dim.
Restore whole first love's fire,
My heart's desire.

Capture me again.
Capture me again.

2009-09-08T00:16:00.001+08:00

Sweet =]

My Teachers Day Present

2009-09-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

Thanks Dylan! =D

Miss taking you boys for small group! =D

30 aug 09

2009-09-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

I know it's kinda late but better late than never =D

Before we went to 'Baybeats' here are some photos =]

29 Aug 09

2009-08-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Tonight I saw, a rising generation, hearts of surrender, confessions, brokeness, unity, love and many other stuff, God, I wanna thank you for that opportunity to be able to see all this things, come and use me LORD, In Jesus name, Amen =]

The Air I Breathe, Worship As A lifestyle

2009-07-29T20:11:00.002+08:00

This is a book i've been reading and I didn't really write down any notes while reading this book... Anyway, I'm gonna write down here the stuff i've learnt so far... =]

-We are created to worship, it is our response to what we value most in life.

-You become what you worship. So if you don't like who you're becoming, check whose sitting on the throne of your heart.

-It does not matter where you worship, It's who you worship that is important.

Here's another part of the book that I find really good:

Which would you prefer?

A dad who tells you how important you are

OR a dad who actually turns up for

the important stuff in your life?

Friends who keep reminding you how "tight" you

are OR friends who are there when you need

them most, never stabbing you in the back?

A "significant other" who makes you really cool

homemade cards telling you you're the best thing

that has ever happened to them

OR one who respects you, keeps your trust

and doesn't cheat on you?

Someone who tells you how special you are

OR someone who shows you?

Well if you're like me, the answer is... BOTH! I want the words and the actions, and i'm guessing the same can be said about you.

Well, God is no different than you and me. The worship God is after is BOTH kind of worship. He wants our words and our actions.

...

Really cool stuff huh? Oh and another thing i've learnt from, i can't remember where, is that lets always take time to think about God,the cross and all... Cos He is the reason why we go to church, exist, smile, be free in the face of troubles, so much more reasons why we should think about God! Let's never forget the reason why we exist and why there's church! =D

God bless!

A Vision About Repentance

2009-07-18T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today during the leaders day of fasting prayer meeting, I think it was a vision that I saw... Anyway what I saw was,

It was raining heavily with thunder and lightning. I saw a man in his room in great distress. He started writing his sins and things in his life that he wanted to let go of. He wrote a few stuff then after writing something he wanted to let go of (a broken relationship to be specific), he got really frustrated and he crushed the paper and threw it at the wall... The crushed paper hit the wall, bounced of it and landed at some corner of his room. Very symbolic huh, crushing a paper written with sins and stuff... Well, the man didn't feel any better, in fact he felt even worse. He stood up, walked to the crushed paper, took it and started tearing it into pieces, then he threw it into the bin. Only then did he feel peace and refreshed.

Alright, so what I think this vision means is that, when we sin, lets not put our sins aside and forget about it. Because the sin is going to stay somewhere in our hearts. But instead, just like how the man tore the piece of crushed paper, lets tear and break our sins through repentance and let no sin dwell in any corner of our hearts. =]

2009-07-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

Really curious about where God's calling me to... I seem to be investing into alot of my friends life, recently alot of school friends lives. Being a listening ear for them and also getting to know them better, It's gonna be an interesting journey! =D

Wasting Life On Things That Won't Last Forever?

2009-07-12T00:22:00.004+08:00

The Corne Bekker seminar was awesome!!! Learnt alot from it! =]

During the seminar, he was talking about life being short, to make good use of it and all...

Then some thoughts came to my mind... I was thinking, if I were to take music as my career, like secular music and all, just making music to entertain people, am I wasting my life on things that won't last forever? I guess the answer is an obvious yes! But going into the music world whether secular or not, if I reach the lost through my music, I wouldn't be wasting my life!

Still unsure of what God's ultimate plan for my life is, but it's gonna be an exciting journey! =D

-God Bless =]

2009-07-11T23:26:00.001+08:00

Love You God =]

2009-07-04T23:41:00.001+08:00

Focus On Your Giant, You Stumble... Focus On God, Your Giants Stumble! =]

Facing Your Giants

2009-06-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

I've been reading a book called 'Facing Your Giants'. Really cool book! And just something to share that i've learnt is that when David faced Goliath, he did not focus on Goliath but he focused on God! In the same way, whatever our giants in our life may be, lets not focus on the giant but on God! =D

Showing Love

2009-06-29T21:02:00.003+08:00

School was pretty cool. It has actually all along been good this year, but I always wanted something better, more... I guess it feels different, weekends and weekdays in school... I mean, I can feel God and all but on weekdays in school I don't feel like I'm living how God wants me to live... Even sometimes on weekends... I don't show love to the people around me and that isn't a small thing! Though some friends may be annoying and all but that doesn't mean we should treat them worse or not as good as we treat friends that aren't annoying.

There may be friends that reject you and all but still show love for them.

A question one guy asked in the movie FIREPROOF, "how can you keep on showing love to someone who keeps on rejecting you." he said that cos his wife and him were gonna divorce. then he tried to change the situation but the wife didn't appreciate what he was doing...

Similar, we may ask ourselves that question when our friends keep on rejecting us but think about it, how did Jesus keep on showing love to us when men kept on rejecting Him? I guess that's really what love is... =] I tried abit of that in school today, it feels great, doing what God wants us to do, showing love... We love because he first loved us.-1 John 4:19

God Bless =]

Pray!

2009-06-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

I've learnt something over a period of time, that we shouldn't take God for granted.. Alot of times I wanted to go skate then ended up I couldn't cos of the rain... But all this showed me the importance of praying for the weather before doing ur outdoor activities! =D

Back To School!

2009-06-28T20:24:00.002+08:00

Well, it's back to school tomorrow! =] I don't know if I look forward or not to this new season of my life. I believe it can be cool, cos of revival and stuff but... ah i dunno... I guess if I can manage my time well and cope with all my commitments, I would look forward to school... Another struggle I face is feeling God's presence in school... I want to live a life that reflects Christ!

I guess I really don't know what to expect. I want something more, I don't want to feel like how I used to feel after school, I want to live close to God, love the pre-believers, to love them like how I would to a believer. To not be pulled down by emotions and all!

"God I pray that in this coming term, You take full control God! I don't want to live like how I've been living, I want more... God there's more out there I know it! I want to lead people to Christ and to feel like how I feel in church. To feel your presence and love so strongly like how I do in church! God I pray for strength and wisdom! Even in my studies, I want to reflect You in my life through my results also! God, let me no longer rely on emotions! God, come and change my mindset about school! I really want more of You God! In Jesus Name, AMEN!!!"

ok I just wanna list some things that I want to change,

- Emotions

- Showing love to my classmates

- Do well in my studies

- Handle my time better

- Build up my quiet time

- Grow stronger in God

- Live differently (in a good way)

- A friends life

I'm gonna try my best to keep track on these things =]

English Project Work

2009-06-28T20:10:00.007+08:00

Johan, Timothy, Kang wei, Qi Kuan and I went to a few places to record our english project video. Did alot of crazy stuff and had fun recording =] We first went to Sentosa then to esplanade.

It was pretty hot while walking to the beach at Sentosa and so I took out my secret weapon!

HEHE! =P

Kan Wei and I =]

Looks like I have a bump on my head... haha =]

So Heavy! Haha... =]

2009-06-27T13:29:00.001+08:00

I think I'm ready God... =]

2009-06-27T11:47:00.002+08:00

God, I don't know if i'm ready for whatevers next...

Photos from Leaders retreat, Revolutionary Road

2009-06-25T17:33:00.007+08:00

THANK YOU TAMPINES 2 CELL, SOMPOP AND EVERYONE ELSE THAT WAS AT THE RETREAT!!! =D

'While I'm Waiting' from Fireproof(movie)

2009-06-23T18:21:00.002+08:00

Fireproof is an awesome movie man!!! must watch, haha... =]

Here it is! =D Awesome song with awesome meaning =D

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Looking back

2009-06-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

Was looking back at my june posts last year while listening to the song, 'Heart Of Worship'.

"God, I thank You so much for shaping me to who I am today... So many things I did not understand in the past. Sorry for turning away from you, I wanna come back to the heart of worship You come and be first in my life LORD. God, I wanna soak in your presence, your love, your peace forever. Take me life God... Amen..."

Lost for words...

C2 camp

2009-06-20T11:05:00.002+08:00

The central 2 cell camp was awesome! Was helping out as a musician for the camp so we stayed one night before the camp started to practice. haha... That night we practiced till we were pretty tired, then we came together and had an awesome time of prayer and worship led by Ben Lee... We got our focus back and after that did 'Mighty To Save' focusing on worshipping God only... It was awesome =] Then we watched a movie, Drumline... cool movie =]

18 june, after playing for the dedication service, we took a nap. Actually we ended up playing.. haha!

Here are some pictures:

Chee Yann playing CS(Charlie Surfing)

HAHA!

The music was too loud, so we didn't have drums for the night service. After the night service, we had so practice for the next day's workshop in the morning. So Benedict had a super cool way of making the drums softer... Using Tissue Paper.. HAHA!!! It actually works haha...

The next day was the cool part. After the morning workshop Josh and I met kenneth heng in church then he drove us to east coast park where josh and I skate and kenneth roller blade.

Here's some cool photos

2009-06-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

My mum's cousin was getting married today.. so they got me to open the car door in the morning haha... Then just now that dinner so cool... Here's a photo taken around the car park =]

Leaders Retreat 7-10june 'Revolutionary Road'

2009-06-10T20:56:00.008+08:00

Hey Awesome People Out There!!! I'm back from Leader's retreat! Really miss it... Did alot of funny stuff especially with Kenneth and Sam as my room mates... HAHA! =D LOVE my group, SOMPOP!!! POP POP POP!!! =]

Anyway, I went to the retreat not knowing what to expect. Weeks before the retreat I was so far from God, I stopped doing my daily devotion. God was not first in my life, I stopped listening to Christian music and drifted so far from God. I was a weekend Christian, never had I drifted so far from God. I stopped praying to God too... But God used this camp to change all that! On the first day during the dedication service at the start of camp, I broke down during the worship and just cried the moment I prayed to Him... During the first day's night service, during the altar call, one of the groups to respond to the altar call was for those who had drifted away from God. I went to the front and had a great encounter with God again =D

Day 2, there was a game called crossroads. It was a station game and the point that the camp com were trying to get through to us was that if God tells you that if you evangelise to person A, he will get saved for sure but you don't really know person A. So you need to get through person B and C to get to know person A. Don't just get though person B and C to get to your objective instead, grab that opportunity to reach out to person B and C too! Through that game, I'm inspired to grab every chance to evangelise! Evangelism should be a lifestyle! God has called every singly one of us to be a fisher of men! =]

Day 3 totally rocked! The best part of when they brought us to a kite museum then we learnt to make our own kite and then there was a huge gigantic field(never seen a field that big) where we flew our kites and had a kite competition, seeing which group had more kites... haha, then after that we had about an hour of free time around the field... It felt really awesome, just being away from everything, so relaxed... Appreciating the simple things in life... =]

The night part rocked big time too!!! It was like more of a celebration, they set up a stage, table and chairs around the pool... Then the dinner was BBQ... Was awesome!!! WHOO!!! =] Then my group performed 'I'm Yours' haha... =]

Day 4, today! It really rocked! service was really awesome! Alot of writing of cards and all, really encouraging =] I wish it was the first day again...

"Dear God, come and run my life the way you want to, I want to make evangelism a lifestyle. I want to surrender my life, my dreams, my plans and all to you. Thank You for forgiving me of all my sins, Love YOU DADDY GOD!!! =DDD"

My hotel room, my room buddies were Kenneth Nah and Samuel Ng... haha =]

A beautiful sunset... *Must see it live

More Photos coming UP! =D

Leaders Retread 7-10june

2009-06-06T09:28:00.006+08:00

Will be in Malaysia for leaders Retreat on 7 to 10 june. Take care... =)

God, what am I looking for... Feeling so low these few days...

2009-06-05T00:24:00.001+08:00

Once Lost, Now Found...

19-5-09

2009-05-19T23:38:00.004+08:00

Was feeling down yesterday and today... but i didn't know why... Or maybe i know why...

Anyway, felt better today after going to Ferb/Joshua's house to jam. Was awesome =) Especially walking around his condo...

2009-05-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

God, sometimes, I just want to go somewhere where I can be with you away from everything else...

1st may 09

2009-05-03T21:31:00.006+08:00

sorry for the long time of no updates... Here's an update =)

On Friday, Darren Peh, Kenneth Han, Matthew Han, Kenneth Heng, Ben Leow, Chee Yann and myself went to pasir ris to cycle, roller blade, skate... I ended up falling down and got a few cuts.. =( Here are some pics=)

Darren Cycling with rollerblades -.-

My ollie attempt haha...

My skate. Spray painted with left over dnt paint =)

At night.. Some new road =)

-RYAN

2009-04-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

God, where are you leading me to......?

Acoustic Jam

2009-04-12T16:14:00.002+08:00

I meet Kenneth Heng and Jae to jam in the morning yesterday. I expected a great time of bonding only at first. We prayed before we really started to jam. I went there and we just played at first. We started to feel closer to each other then we played 'take all of me' and from there led to other songs such as 'devotion', 'You reign', etc.. I felt such peace in my heart and God's presence. Really enjoy jamming with them! looking forward to the next round!

2009-04-12T15:36:00.001+08:00

went to Good News Singapore on Friday. I'll be going again today whoo!! =)

Morning Train

2009-04-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

A song I wrote for fun =) A little random haha. =)

Here it goes,

Verse 1:

I don't hear any sound

Other than the morning town sound

I'm running late

I wonder how long I have to wait

Pre-chorus:

I start to tremble

I start to worry

Chorus:

Then I heard the morning train

It's moving fast

I'm self-assured that things would work

As i'm sitting in the morning train

Verse 2:

The train in crowded

I sit in the corner

I start to shiver

Because of my fever

Pre-chorus:

I start to tremble

I start to worry

Chorus 2:

I am on the morning train

It's moving fast

I'm self-assured that things would work

As i'm sitting in the morning train

Bridge:

I wonder why

People stare at me like i've lost sight

Like the guy on my right

he gave me a fright

Chorus 3:

I'm walking out the morning train

It's moving fast

I'm self-assured that things would work

As i'm walking out the morning train

-RYAN =)

Dream of spiritual attack

2009-03-30T21:07:00.003+08:00

This post may be kinda weird.. I had a dream that was spiritually attacked last night.

It was quite freaky and seemed pretty real.In the dream I saw demon-possesed people and did see a picture of a devil. But in the dream, everytime they attacked me spiritually, I saw myself calling upon the name of Jesus and they could not come near. I saw myself talking to my school friends about it and they all started avoiding me. The dream ended there.

Now when I look back, even if my friends ever avoid me for my faith in God, I always have God and He will always be there for me =)

Praise GOD!

2009-03-30T21:03:00.001+08:00

PRAYER ANSWERED! My school didn't say a single thing about the chairman training! So I was able to go for superlife band practice , Megalife and see my friends get baptised!

All credits goes to God! =))

ahh,

2009-03-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

In february, we were told that the class chairman would have to go for some compulsory training this sat 28 march. but 'm serving this coming sunday and practice is on sat! Really need to pray about this. Please keep me in prayer too! tx! =)

Rain Down

2009-03-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

I was on the bus home after cell outing on Tuesday and as I listened to the song 'Rain Down', I felt God saying that in His presence we are free. I started to lay my life down before God. I was feeling the hurts of others and I felt that God wanted me to do that song if I led worship in cell and true enough, on friday I received a call to lead worship for cell and I did Rain Down. For me, this was the best worship leading I ever had. Laying everything aside and focusing mainly on God! =)

16-mar-09 superlife esplanade outing

2009-03-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Some of us went to Esplanade for the Mosaic festival and it was pretty cool and we had a great time of fellowship! =)

Here are some pics

2009-02-20T23:09:00.004+08:00

Haha, something I drew during the Chinese New Year! =)

Despite the circumstance, Praise Him!

2009-02-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

I went to planetshakers live at cornerstone church 2 days ago. I didn't know what to expect at first till Darren said something like, expect something out of the service and you'll get something out of it.

I expected to meet God during the service and I was feeling pretty affected by some stuff in school on friday and God really did speak to me through the service!

What the worship leader said during either praise or worship that helped me stand up again from the hurts i got on friday was this: "... No matter what your circumstance is, I'm not talking about having a breakthrough tonight. What I'm saying is that no matter what the circumstance is, let's still praise God because there is Freedom in the name of Jesus! ..."

another thing I learnt that night was to position yourself ready for God to come. And to hold on to my dreams!

thanks

2009-02-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

Hey friends , thanks for caring for me when I was feeling low. I guess I was pretty far from God for quite awhile. My quiet time died and all.. trying to build up that discipline again. One reason why i felt down in my previous post, i guess it had the words I've been speaking. So I gave myself a challenge on sat (quite awhile after I posted my previous post). To speak edifying words from that day to the end of February. So that by then the discipline to speak edifying words would have been sunk in me.

Tx people, especially Superlife Ministry! :D

2009-01-31T09:00:00.002+08:00

I wonder what's up with myself.. I feel like I'm far from everyone.

I don't know where I am, what I'm saying. Who am I becoming?

Random Pics =)

2009-01-25T00:00:00.006+08:00

The Latest Cd I've Bought.

Mission Trip Photo

1st post of the Year!!

2009-01-08T21:51:00.002+08:00

WHOO!! this whole year has been awesome and fun so far. school seems so fun, and it isn't like last year where i always feel far from God! It was really just the mindset and friends around me was another thing.

Recently I realize I can't sleep if I didn't do quiet time that day, no matter how late and how tired I felt. God would remind me of the commitment I made during 'YOU" camp. This has happened twice! And I realize that during quiet time when I really engage with God rocks! It's so powerful!

This Years gonna rock!

"Have Your way In My Life LORD!!!"

MIssion Trip Orang Asli

2008-12-30T10:08:00.002+08:00

I went on Mission trip and it was a great experience. Last night as I did my quiet time, God took me back to the mission trip and it felt awesome! such a simple life they live and all..

Its really an awesome experience to be on a mission trip! The night before, I was worried of how the trip would be like.. then Eilli came back to church to get her wallet and she talked to me and ensured me the trip would be alright. After the bus ride to malaysia I really felt closer to the team! And throughout the trip grew closer! I miss being with the team! and Pastors and Kids and Adults!!!

Though we had to come back 1 day before the actual date cos almost the whole team fell sick (i was the 1st one to fall sick. haha, It still was a worth it trip!

I've been serving in Superlife and for quite a long time its become just God and myself but wheres the children? During this trip i was asked to play with the Orang Asli kids. At first I thought it would be boring , in the end, I found it fun!!!

One thing there is that, its so hard to communicate.. Anyway , now its easier to interact with kids after the mission trip!

I look forward to going there again! =)

MHS

2008-12-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

WHOO!!!! 3 guest, 2 salvation, 1 re-dedication! Tomorrow will be my 2nd run with Ethel, Jane, Charissa and Yi Ren. Today was with Yi Ren, Simeon and Joshua Koh(didn't come cos sick).

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Megalife Camp

2008-12-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

I'm Back from camp =)

I feel very different now! I feel that this camp talked about something thats so real, not losing that touch from God!

I feel more, know when to be serious and when to be funny now.

On the first night of camp, I felt so set free from my sins during altar all!

and the next few services the following days were great too!

"Dear God, the callings You gave me last year, You confirmed them this camp. I pray that someone approach me when the time is right. In Jesus Name, Amen!"

Camp hype won't last forever! But Ur spiritual life can be mantained =)

You Reign

2008-12-06T11:19:00.002+08:00

A beautiful song, as I was on the MRT yesterday, i was looking at the lyrics for this song and I just felt so moved by the lyrics!

You Reign - Hillsong United

You Reign

What could stand before You
As You chose to embrace
A cross so undeserved You took for me
The weight of sin upon You
When You offered Your life
As You walked the streets of men
With fading strength

How could we live but not see
Your sacrifice
Your glory

You reign, You reign
Over everything Lord, You reign
With power, and justice divine
Over everything Lord, You reign

What was Your last thought
As You drew Your last breath
Where the victory was Yours for us to see
And all will know the truth
As we live by Your grace
Every praise to You alone

See now the King of Glory
Love of God become my calling
Father I surrender all I am to You forever

We Are The Reason

2008-12-06T11:00:00.005+08:00

Had mission training on Wed to Fri this week. haha!

We were learning this song, "we are the reason"

Its a beautiful song with so much meaning!

We are the reason - We are the reason

2008-11-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

I guess we all cant always reach peoples expectations. haha, cos we're all not perfect..

-something i learnt tdy =)

Sound Day!

2008-11-25T22:24:00.007+08:00

WHOO!!!!! Today was awesome! Helping out in sound day was super fun!!

The worship, games and all!!! Really feel bonded to so many people now =)

Some said Joshua Ng looked like Ferb. I didn't understand at first until I saw the picture!! HAHA!!

Ferb is the green hair guy. Don't Ferb and Josh Look alike? haha!!!

Some other random picture. haha

Look a my straight (brown) hair =)

YEA!! =)

2008-11-24T08:52:00.002+08:00

During cell worship on Saturday, a few questions came to me..

Why do I jump during service?

Do I understand what i'm singing during Praise and Worship?

I believe through this journey of seeking for answers, God will do something through my life through this journey!

Prayer =)

2008-11-19T23:02:00.004+08:00

"After all this time of feeling so stagnant and so sinful. God You still gave me a second chance. Thank You for letting me know that You're beside, around and in me. Raise me up, I wana do things for Your glory but somehow my heart doesnt listen. Which instrument should I focus on God? Help me use the gifts You have given me to praise and worship You. To lead people, to mentor and disciple people around me, to lead people into worship. LORD help me stop comparing and envying. Raise me up! I thank You for forgiving me. In Jesus name Amen =) "

a conversation with Yi Ren

2008-11-19T22:34:00.001+08:00

✖Chen!, Yiren says:
if everyone were to compare, than everyone would feel discouraged. cause theres bound to be someone better

The Spirit Carries On

2008-11-18T18:32:00.003+08:00

'The Spirit Carries On' an awesome song! Thou it may not be written by a christian band. but the lyrics are meaningful I feel. Although I don't understand some parts.

The Spirit Carries On

Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, life is too short,
The here and the now
And youre only given one shot
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that weve got?

If I die tomorrow
Id be allright
Because I believe
That after were gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
Im not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow
Id be allright
Because I believe
That after were gone
The spirit carries on

Move on, be brave
Dont weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear

Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victorias real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that Im here
Its perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
Id be allright
Because I believe
That after were gone
The spirit carries on

18 Nov '08

2008-11-18T18:08:00.003+08:00

whOO! Today was fun! Helped out in OJT , some kids ee thing. after playing at the first childcare I felt super tired when we reached the second childcare. haha! But it was fun.. I guess my trip to Malaysia really drained my energy. BUT I'm building God's kingdom so I don't mind the hard work! =)

Today 2nd round, cant wait!! YEA!!!!!!!!

Check out this song, I love it!

2008-11-09T15:08:00.003+08:00

today has been quite fun. haha! Tx guys for the "amazing race". haha! As I was playing the "amazing race" i felt happier and felt filled again by God.

haha! they emptied my bag and hid all my stuff. haha!

oh yea, the guys are Joshua Ng, Darren Peh, Small Ben, Pi ying, Abby, Nicole, Natalie, Amberlie and Dorothea.

Tx guys! =)

Oh ya! Tx Abby, Pi Ying and small Ben! for your birthday gift! taking time off to give write the songs for me and make the disc! =)

2008-11-08T22:55:00.005+08:00

feeling so empty right now..

Is Superlife all where God's calling me to?

God seems to be the only one who cares.

God, Raise me up.. I wana rise up. But I don't seem to be able to move on cos of the stuff around me..

As Water Falls

2008-11-06T09:06:00.004+08:00

Come back home

From a long week or a day

Filt with thing unpleasing to His eyes

I step into my bathroom

And I turn on the shower

C D

The water starts to fall

G D

As the waters fall on me

C D

Come and rain down on me

G D

As water cleanses the dirt off my skin

C D

Come and cleanse me from the sin in me

Tx Friends!!!

2008-11-04T22:40:00.001+08:00

Hey Superlife people! Tx for making my Birthday such a memorable and fun one! :D

Will post pics up soon! haha! tx for big pink card and the PEDAL!!!!!! WHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! :D

14th birthday

2008-11-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

Yay! Im now officially 14! haha! todays gonna be a long day ahead!
Superlife Worship team bbq. haha!

Well, so much has happen this year, when i look at my older blog posts i can say God has bring me a long way to who I am today!
There's sp much more thats gonna happen the coming years and God will be by my side through it all! Whoo!!

A new year, a new calling, a new direction, a new voice, a new..............................................

Yea! Gonna grow deeper in God this year!

Dear God, the callings u gave me during 'one' camp, is it gonna happen?

Stagnant waters move

2008-10-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

While blogging on cell blog earlier on I felt like writing a song about how I have been feeling and things that I feel happening to other Christians.

Stagnant Waters Move

E B/D# C#m A

Waters still, at where they are

E B/D# C#m A

Dust collecting on the surface

C#m A

How long can I stand

C#m A

How long can I last

E B

God touch our thirsty hearts again

C#m B A

dry, weary and broken

E B

God, stir up the waters in our hearts

C#m A

and then stagnant waters move again

C#m B A

Then I go back into the week

C#m B A

Have I lost that touch from that day

B A B

I feel like that day,never happened, yea

E B

God touch our thirsty hearts again

C#m B A

dry, weary and broken

E B

God, stir up the waters in our hearts

C#m A

and then stagnant waters move again

GUitar on the wall

2008-10-26T21:42:00.002+08:00

whoo! today I went to a coffee shop and on the walls there were some old guitars hanging and alot of pictures of the 'Beatles'. super cool shop.

Ill upload pics some other day

Child-like faith *repost

2008-10-11T01:38:00.003+08:00

Why I am reposting the post about child-like faith is because my previous example said that a father asked his child to touch his nose and he'll grow taller. this can lead to confusion, God won't ask you to do silly things.

heres a proper example about child-like faith from the Bible:

In the Bible when God called Peter to the water, Peter took that step of faith to step out of the boat he was in to walk on water. But when he started to worry, he started sinking.

The step of faith Peter took to step out of the boat was child-like faith. He did not question Jesus to ask what if...

God Bless!

21 sep '08

2008-09-21T21:56:00.004+08:00

Today has been an awesome day !

This morning after 2nd service, my sis was suppose to bring alvyn and aaron out but in the end after 2nd service, blowing cakes and all for bdae people, Samuel, Shannon, Ben Lee and Kenneth Han. I heard that Alvyn and family was coming to my house!! I was super happy cos I tot could not see him till december. Cos i was suppose to study tdy. In the end, ill be waking up early tmr to study. haha!

It's been great having Alvyn and family here! Alvyn taught me some cool guitar stuff!!

haha, fun jamming SwitchFoot songs with him! haha he used keyboard to play drums and all. haha!!

Heres a photo of us ytd at cell (Alvyn and I)

After that, we sent Alvyn and family, oh ya Aunty Bea wasnt around, I forgot why. haha!

Anyway, we sent them to ang mo kio cos they had something on there. And my family had dinner, celebrating grandmothers bdae. Heres another pic of something that looks like cy on my cousings psp:

Look forward to the hols! :D can jam like mad!

19 sep '08

2008-09-21T21:46:00.003+08:00

A great day, somehow my group got an A for music test although me messed up pretty bad haha

Bucket king

God can use anyone and anything

2008-09-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

Just came back from a prayer meeting in a chinese church. Followed my mother and her sisters there..

Well, through that prayer meeting I believe God reminded me that He can use anyone and anything for something big!

I have big dreams of what I want to do in future. Sometimes or rather most of the time, I wonder how its gonna be possible with what I have now.

after today, I believe that my dream can come true!

God can use what you have for something big!

There are people around the world tat cant do things we can do. Some cant speak, some disables, etc..

God can still use them with what they have!

"God, I wana commit my dreams into Your hands In Jesus Name, Amen!"

Relying on God for strength

2008-09-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

Well, school starts tmr! Dun know how things are gonna be. haha
Hope everything goes fine. I hope that this term, school will be better and that I won't have to feel far from God. I guess i dun wana rely on emotions. Like, God is surely near me all the time even when I feel far from Him.

This term, I don't wana worry about what people would think about me and my faith in Jesus Christ! I wana learn to rely on God's strength!

I wana learn to love school people. Somehow whenever I talk with church friends, i feel happy but when talking with school friends I feel lost.

I don't want to lead school prayer meetings with my own strength anymore!

As I pray to God, commiting this whole term into Go's hands, I feel that He is saying, : Everythings gonna be alright!"

I wana study harder this term too! get good results and have a great holiday!

"God, I don't know whats coming up this term, I pray that You guide me through each step I take. In Jesus name, Amen!"

2 sep '08

2008-09-02T21:18:00.005+08:00

Its been a long time since I went out with Yi Ren , so tdy we went to bras Basar.
ANd got stuff..
I got my 1st harmonica :D

And after tat studied awhile and headed to penisular where Yi Ren found his dream guitar. Here are some pics :D

Will I continue to praise Him?

2008-09-01T22:08:00.003+08:00

Ytd, Small Ben, Pi Ying, Abby and myself went to the beach for fun. we ended up staying there till dinner time den we went downtown.

While we were at the beach in the afternoon, we took retarded videos and later part worship b4 we left.

God used Pi Ying to speak to me. Abby, ben and pi ying were at the shore looking at some stuff. While I sat on the rocks, as i sat there i was actually feeling disappointed and sad about something that happened earlier that day. I knew God allowed things to happen for a reason. But I felt that I needed His comfort. So I prayed for Him to speak. Den awhile later, Pi Ying came and started playing 'Heart Of Worship' on the guitar and I felt God asking me :"music is only way to worship me. Despite all thats happened , will you continue to praise Me?"

That night after we all went home, something else happened and I felt assured.

I guess like what was preached on sat, we grow in God one step at a time. God doesn't want us to break down from such things.

29- Aug -08

2008-08-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

I'M FREE!

Tdy, Abby smsed me saying that she would be playing guitar for cell and wanted to check some guitar stuff with me to confirm. So i met Abby and Pi Ying at pasir ris beach. It was super fun! they were playing at the sand while i played guitar den after that did other stuff. haha was super fun!And Abby and Piying picked seashells for me, so touched!

Here are some photos!

Tx Pi Ying and Abby for seashells! :D

Haha looks like some cd cover. haha!

My 1st Guitar. haha

Teachers Day!

2008-08-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

Yay! tdy is teachers day! haha I guess im partly happy cos school ends early! haha! We gave mr chee alot of group hugs. wanted to throw him into the sink! haha!
Going bak to primary school was fun!
went for lunch with Teng Sim, Amira, Mashita and Rebecca!
Was so fun and we couldn't bear to say goodbye. Cos like its been so long since we last met..
I feel that this year was better when i visited primary school. More different.. haha

Mr CHee (the one with mole)

Miss the food..

Aww...

Problems

2008-08-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

So much has happened and this week i learnt something, God will not give you a problem and leave you to deal with it by urself. He will see you through the problem and guide you in each step you take!

A Prayer In The Crowd

2008-08-22T19:49:00.001+08:00

tdy I was suppose to go skate with dominic, dale and benton but in the end didn't cos it was raining. When I was at city hall today, as I walked around I saw some people walking pass me and I just said a simple prayer, like I saw this blind guy and I prayed in my heart: " LORD, I pray that would heal his eyes". Well, and a few more.